Strike out

I am a complete disaster?
Does the idiomatic barer was too much.
Am I an asshole?
To combine two wealings is not such an easy task?
Do I really lie? Do I lie to my self?

Not such an easy task see yourself as the bad guy in cowboy movie. As the guy everyone hate sooner or later.
There is not really a way out of this thought. I am an asshole. Even if I don’t mean to. I am one.
The only palliative I could find is that hurts, and I deserved. And that does not matter how god or bad you are. There is always a chance to hurt someone or to be hurt back.
Not karma, just fucking people.